The inner world of a simple girl....

A new month!!!

2010-01-31T00:01:00.003+08:00

Times really flies..nw we are moving towards the 2nd month of the year...

CNY is jus ard the corner, exactly 2 weeks from now...but somehow there are no festive mood at all...in fact I wish it nv comes...nt that i dun miss my family..nt tt i dun wanna come home..but jus tt i hate all the nagging,the quarrels.isn't a home suppose to b a nice n cosy shelther tt shield u from the rain n shine in the outside world??

Been getting emo recently again...sometime the mood just change w/o me realising it...it scared me..it really does...i do not wan this to happen..as i noe this affect nt only me but ppl ard me...
stress in work and study really hitting me hard this time round...it has drianed me entirely leaving me physically and mentally so tired now...just hope everything will be over soon.........

A New Year

2010-01-08T23:21:00.002+08:00

wow....2010 is already here and 1st week is gone....

this yr seem such a bad year with a bad start at work on the 1st working day of the year...irritating users that are so unreasonable or even make things worse...haiz....

anyway time to start revising...4 more months to exam time...jia you wor.....

Eventful Aug

2009-08-16T22:27:00.005+08:00

times flies....now is Aug already...very soon the year will be coming to an end...

This month will be a happening month...there are plently of events filling up my weekend for the mth...of cos not to forget is my bday month too..keke...let see what i have in line for the month...

7 Aug - Went to my boss place for BBQ..thou a normal bbq but guess is a chance for us to get tgt especially since Kenneth and Raymond is leaving us soon...

14 Aug- A sudden meetup with pm..keke...so onz hor...haf dinner and talk cock session till 1am sia...we oso a bit crazy..got ourselves a pair of diamond earring each....my first diamond in my life...it was a great night after a long week at work with funs and laughter throughout the night..

21 Aug - Dinner and KTV session with my colleagues...Farewell for Kenneth and Raymond and also celebration for my bday

22 Aug - Session with the group...shall cont the fun we have from melaka..

23 Aug- Bday celebration????activities unknown yet..keke

28 Aug - TBD. dinner with Dar and pui probably...

apart from the fun activities lining up for the month...this month was also the start of my class...so making me more busy...worst is normally the class is alternate week but 1 of my module is held weekly for aug..n the best is it falls on sat..so there goes my sat... nvm..shall fully enjoy myself oso with all the mmetup n funs with friends..

counting down to the exam results release......

back from trip

2009-07-21T19:54:00.003+08:00

argh..so mad...am posting the entry when connection have some issues and noe i have to repost again...

have just got back from the first oversea trips with my sec sch friend..we went to Melaka..guess very soon some 1 will start thinking for next trip..keke..it was a fun trip with laughter,singing,drinking,eating,shopping and of cos the hthtdd session late in night that have dig so many secrets..lol..n not to forget it was sl bday as well..hope you have an enjoyable day and the surprises we have for u..:) thou it was a short trip but i sure it will leave a deep memories in every 1 of us...

for this trip..have some mixed feeling too...abit emo abt it ba...haiz...but shall not mention too much ya..it suppose to b a fun trip...so tire after the trip...i have to survive the long mon with working in the day n lesson in the night..sooooo tired..but worst is thou i very tire yet i cant sleep well in the night..mayb too stress with work or subconsiouly my mind is worry abt the coming exam???there is an econ paper this sat..will need to start prepare le...so jerm so sorry that i cant join u all this fri ya..but not to worry..shall meet again in 6 mths time(provided u did not go for backpacking)....

mia..

2009-06-20T01:58:00.002+08:00

haha...i have gone missing for a mth!!!!!!!!!!!haha..too busy with work here n there...haiz...jus so sick of the job...fri night n I only left office at 1030....really need to find new job but definitely pay is sth that cant compromise too much..

nxt few weekend will b burnt...work...cleaning up my place..colleague rom...n of cos the big plan on 18 july...guess that will b my last trip to anywhere till mayb year end or mayb even nxt yr...cos my coming sem class is on sat...arghh.....

yeah...exam over

2009-05-17T22:15:00.002+08:00

keke..finally it is over..but abit disappointed with the poa paper as i have unneccesary mistakes...is not i dun noe hw to do..is calculation mistakes..omg hw i let it happen...anyway is over...gonna wai till sept to c the result ba..for bnf..will be glad if i can passed..dun pin too much on that...

exam over...but gonna return to work soon..will b damn busy..haiz...n will start lesson in june agian as i retaking my bridging econ...suppose to go to batam over the weekend but last min gotta attend my cousin wedding in kl so there goes my relax trip..but perhaps will go for a day trip tmr since going back to office on tue...

hey..all frenz out there hu are still mugging hard..jiayou wor..time to start planning to meet up with u all le...:)

Bobbi Brown workshop...

2009-04-19T20:22:00.003+08:00

signed up for Bobbi Brown workshop which was conducted this morning...a 3 hr workshop teaching how to put on make up...haha..actually i interesed to know how to do eye make up la...tt is sth i alway haf prob with...the workshop will include another 6 1-1 session with their artist at the counter...paid 150 for this workshop but the 150 redemable for their products...but 1 thingi mus say..theri product so ex sia....bought 5 items and is 200 bucks le...heart break sia...den still got so many type of brushes to be used...
guess i really not the make up person...i will nv forgone my sleep to wake up earlier to put make up..keke..will load some foto when i free ba..dun luff when u c it wor..haha..tink 2 side not balance sia...cos 1 eye is done by the artist the other side myself..cant c a distintive diff sia..lol

Misses u alot~~~

2009-04-09T22:14:00.004+08:00

it has only been 6 mths n u haf left us 4ever....it break the heart of everyone in the family...especially mummy...she has been watching u grow bigger n taller with each day...u bring us joy, happineses, laughter to the family...

u have been naughty..but still u r so cute that u make us laugh n angry...dun even bear to scold u...u love playing in the mud making urself so dirty n walk ard in the hse...stealing away other's rice bowl and line them up in line as if u r enjoying buffet...

in 6 mths..u have grown so tall n big..there is so much things we haf talk abt...how tall u will grow..how big size u r...hw weird looking u r with multi colour...mummy has even thot of cooking red eggs for u during ur 1 yr bday..but tt will nv come..we knew u hate to leave us too...it mus has been a painful moment for u to hold till the last breath till mummy c u..u cried to mummy before u left..belief mummy's heart is breaking at the moment to c u cried n end ur last breath..she sounded so sad when she called to break the new to me..my heart really sunk at that moment..nv will i imagine that is the last day i will c u again..glad i still haf tt last weekend with u..we just hope our guesses are wrong...else i really cant imagine y any1 will be so cruel to poision u..causing u to suffer...

i will miss u kissing me...miss u barking at me for food n play with u..miss hugging u...miss everything abt u...is sad tt i dun haf much foto with me..but will alway rem u...love u...

Counting down...

2009-04-07T21:51:00.002+08:00

in less than a mth time...exam is coming...haven really start prepare yet except that poa still ok ba..but banking n finance is really...haiz..my study schedule jus dun work...tireness n stress at work make me cant concentrate on study after work..simply drag days after days..alway say tmr den study ba..bt tt tmr nv come..haha

my mock for poa i gt 57...nt as bad as i tot..but i wanna aim higher for my actual paper..this is a lower second class score..hope to get upper second ba..will work hard ya....

work is getting so bad tt i really dun noe when i will b out of this job..frankly speaking if not becos of money...i would haf gotten out of this hell place...ppl change...the happy environment ,colleagues that i used to have all disappeared....within 2 years....from a happy me to a stressful n unhappy me...basically i haf to drag my feet to work everyday...life really suck...everyone is so selfish that they only care for themselve and even sabatoge each other...what is this...hope everything will be over soon...

Exam over...

2009-03-15T00:46:00.002+08:00

after 2 tough weeks..mock is finally over..however din manage to do well especially banking n finance paper...belief cant even pass the paper...nonetheless..is time to prepare study schedule n prepare revison for my actual exam in May...cant afford to fail any subjects as it will lenghten the time to obtain my degree..

work been pretty bad too...especially after i heard the news tt my partner might b cut..this mean i will have even more workload..if tt the case hw to manage sia...now already everyday OT cant imagine life w/o my partner...plus my exam..haiz...

pm...jiayou too ya...we will study poa tgt..keke...my frenz out there..must all jiayou wor...:)

Exam week

2009-03-08T16:48:00.002+08:00

These 2 weeks are my mock exams....haf decided to drop 1 module this yr so that i can concentrate on the other 2..thou a bit heartpain for the fees paid but i tink it will b better den failing all my modules...

just finish my poa paper on fri...it wasn't as gd as what i tot...mostly is the theory ba..cos i haf been pratising on the calculation part...still i made some careless mistakes sia..but is gd tt i learn sth from it too..at least nxt time when face with the qns can handle it...will try to do more qns..n ya..pm we shall meet up to exchange our paper..keke :)

coming up next will b my banking n finiance paper..killer paper too as till now i haven even start a single thing..is jus like studying a module within these few days den go for exam..haiz..cant pin too much on it..but will use the remaining 2 mth before actual exam to study it...

gers..we shall all work hard tgt ya...Jia You!!!!

pre bday celebration for caryn n yomghui

2009-02-22T16:23:00.002+08:00

we haf a pre celebration for them ytd...only cary is aware if it n yh has no idea at all...he seem sad when we seem like 4get abt his bday..lol

initial plan was to go flyer..den dinner at tampinese n lastly summer breez at pasir ris...end up all plan change...
even wanted to do revision with pm but also nv..the notes went to have fun with us ard..lol...

had 2 bowling games at downeast n eventually settle dw there...had dinner at New York New York..after dinner went kbox sing till 3 am...actually after 2 am most of stoned liao..kkeke...but yet we stay till 3 cos of the tidbits...u all noe y ya...:P

was tired tt i knock out till dunno wat happen..suppose to go swim in morn but i oni wake up at 3..lol...wonder did pm wake up in time for her dim sum lunch...ok...going swim now...
dun say i nv update hor...

waiting for caryn to upload foto n videos(meant for jerm)...haha

the lost.....

2009-02-09T20:25:00.003+08:00

so much has happen since the last updates..been busy at work n stress at study...
getting sick easily nwaday as body is weak...guess gonna slowly build back my health..things has happen last few days which make me start to reflect on life..to cherish my life even more..

a frenz..thou cant say we r very very close but i would say he a nice n gd frenz..a clever n outgoing guy..but we have lost him 4ever...so sorry tt i cant even sent u off for the last journey..really hope u can go in peace and haf a better life in next life..we will nv 4gt u...

New yr coming....

2009-01-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

hey frenzs..been some time since i update...been quite busy and oso not feeling well...feeling so tire nw n then..

new yr is comiing..but this yr so broke...dun tink there is any bonus for this yr..so sad...so not buying too many clothes since nt going out oso...went for a haircut today..my hair condition is so bad tt the hairdresser is stunned...say i look so shag compare to the last time he saw me...so spend money on hair treatment and shampoo....*broke*...

after new yr..it will left me with 1 month b4 my mock exam...haiz...starting to study now..but not much progress...still haf a lot to go as i haf miss so many lessons previously now gonna self study so a bit slow...plus work is so tiring....stop here for now..preparing to go slp soon...working early nwadays..but nv get to go off on time...

Merry Xmas!!!!

2008-12-25T23:37:00.008+08:00

Hey frenzs..Merry christmas....:)

been missing for sometime cos last week was on leave and was in Genting/KL....

took the night coach to Genting on last Monday night, reach there early morning at 6 am...is early n nth much to do so went to the casino..keke...RM100 lasted me for nearly 6 hours before i left the casino...went to the chin swee temple in the afternoon....went to the snow world in the evening...stayed for a night in Genting...din get a chance to go theme park as it was so cold n foggy n i suppose to leave Genting and go to KL,Bata caves..but end up i stuck in the casino..haha..the first night lost abt RM400 le so on wed..abit not fu qi so went back to play again...mayb luck is jus not with us...biggest lost hit till RM900....it was only till wed evening that luck start to pick up...playing big jack...n min bet is 25..imagine betting on 25 allow me to win till 400-500...my bet was the maximun on table le as my luck is so gd tt many ppl add on to my bet...one of the guy actually won a few K..eventually final lose reduce to RM300..reach KL pretty late, feel so bad as my cousin all waiting for me...

thurs stay at my aunt hse the whole day and cousin help me to do facial...fri went to sunway lagoon and nigh time my cousin bought me to a club named Supper.... Sat is the day i leaving KL le..so fast my journey has come to an end...get to go Time Square for awhile before i boarded the coach back...omg..the clothes are so cheap..many shop are selling at RM10 for everthing in the shop...haiz..too bad that i do not have enough time...in fact staying at relative place a bit restricted la..cant go out till too late n go anywhere oso abit troublesome as they r worry n will offer to drive me there..but i dun like to trouble ppl to drive me here n there..so this trip is a bit wasted as din get to go much place...

Din get a chance to c the christmas lighting in KL oso..Not to mention...have miss the chance to go Cameron Highland...wanted to go this place but the timing does not allow...hope i will have a chance to go there soon...estimated total damage for this trip is SGD800 for us..upoad some photos here from the trip...

Genting So cold early in the mornthe fog

Christmas Deco

Chin Swee Temple

Sunway Lagoon

Time Square

So basically this is my journey to Genting/KL.....

Now back to chritmas eve n christmas....wow..damage to my wallet is os huge these 2 days...eve..i finally found my red agate ring...consider my xmas ring to myself ba as i have been finding it for very long....damage is 55...done a airbrush manicure oso at 12 bucks...

Red agate ring

christmas day done some shopping at Robinson, bought a shirt for dad and t-shirt for my bro and some towel too...damge is 72 bucks..den went over to OG and bought 2 t-shirt which cost 22 bucks...along the way bought a pair of shoe at Image turn..damage $26.90

Dinner went to a cafe name Astons located at The Cathay level 4...i would say this place is cheap and value for money...Main dish with 2 side dishes start from $6.90 onwards...no wonder so many ppl come here for their meals... only bad thing is they dun accept reservation so u must wait b4 u can enjoy cheap n good food ya...

Grill herb fish: $7.20 Mushroom soup: $2.80 Black pepper steak:$11.50

After dinner, walk past a push cart stall and add further damage to my wallet..$45 for these 2 tops..

Broke now...2 days damage is abt 200+...mus save le...think no need buy too many new year clothes le..still need to pay for exam fee..$1300+++ sob

shall stop here..going to sleep..tmr still gonna work..

so tire.....

2008-12-13T04:52:00.002+08:00

YAWN..............so tire...have been working till this time for 2 days le...18 hrs working..shagged....but what to do..gonna completes all these before i can go on leave....(job is still not yet completes as of now..weekend gonna burn with work again)
end up miss another class again...sian...later afternoon still have lesson...really busy....

really looking 4ward to my trip nxt week for a break cos once i back from leave...will b busy with work again.....

dec 6 updates

2008-11-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

hey frenzs...latest updates...bbq pit is fully booked so we have decided to go for pot luck n order pizza ya...this is what we will do...my class end at 5..so will meet pm at raffles mrt den take mrt tgt..sl might meet us there too ya so we can travel tgt..we will go to east coast to check out on the bicycle kiosk first before proceeding to my place ya...

attendees will be pm,sl,carol,jerm n ju..but jy say she wun b joining us for night cycling...will try to contact yh again...sl...will remind u to bring ur precious poker card n uno stacko....

so tired.............

2008-11-25T23:33:00.009+08:00

what a tired day...knock off from work abt 11 jus now...13+ hrs working in office...shagged...
somemore the past weekend i am back to office too...so no life right????but what i can say...jus wanna keep a job to survive now...but job is really getting bad....sooner or later will b out of job...i jus not gd at boot licking..so there goes my life span in my job ba...

omos reaching end of mth, n i have nt started on any study yet..everyday after work, i will b so shagged to absocb anything from book..haiz..time r really running out..sian...so hard to manage all this now..i hate it...pray my study will not get too bad else really dunno gonna study how many yr before i can get that stupid useless paper...

ok now talk abt sth more joyful stuff....dec 6 date with the gers....sl...as conversed shall meet u 1 day to pass u the keys so that u all can go my place earlier to prepare...attendane list still remains...no response from jy,carol and yh...shall keep hunting them....

ok...shall stop here...zzz monster is here....good nights

Another week past...

2008-11-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

Time flies..another week has past...busy with work n study...especially work is so tense up with the cuttign of staffs...nv noe when is my turn...
haf a shock ytd when i received sms abt half mock exam in 1st week of dec..went sch to check today n it i smeant for full time course..of cos if part time student wanna join oso can..but doubt i will b going cos i still lost in all my subjects...have gotten my study guides...is time to start planning for studying le else it will b really too late...these 2 days haf been tinking..if i really intend to go accounting line and be cpa,i shld haf gone for ACCA rather than UOL. is faster route to cpa and cheaper..stupid me hor...haiz..what to do..unless i gonna waste the money tt i haf submit but tink 4gt it ba..jus cont with uol den c ba..will b arranging for the application of bank loan oso..most likely will take citi loan...shall meet up with the person to discuss on the details first..

ok now updates for our 6 dec events....
Confirmation from Jerm,sl n pm...No response from yh,jy and carol...

will b arranging for my leave n trip oso..guess i will try to find time to go kl n genting ba..keke..a bit disappointed that the 5 of us cant go on a trip tgt..mayb nxt yr shld try to plan ya...

tmr gonna go back to work for inventory sweep sia...so sian..guess will b a day work again...gonna go to my dreamland soon..take care my frenzs...

Next event

2008-11-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

Keke..here I am... has a great weekend on sat with sl n pm..the day start from 9am all the way to 12 plus am...oh..that more than 12 hrs ya...guess others mus b tinking what we do ya???keke :p...u shall c it from sl blog...

what now...it is to plan for the nxt "event"...my dear frenzs...listen here...i am booking you on 6 Dec...we shall have a BBQ session at my place follow by........guess what...night cycling at east coast...den eat breakfast tgt at...yeah...tt our plan...wait for my invitation soon ya...so what food shall we have *drooling*...banana choc...pm nv eat before ya...specially prepare 4 u...cheesy hotdogs....satay....cant wait for tt day to come ya...

nxt is our regular exercise date..rem what that???keke..shall go swimming n cycling all these ya if we r all available....be it sat or sun..so i have decided to mark my schedule on blog so we can arrange it more easily...note..if lesson on sat most likely i will b in town so can plan on sun ya..so check ouut my schedule n match with your:)

planning to go for a short getaway but might be disappointed again...cos my timing so hard to fit in..1st 3 sat of dec gt class..hw to go..unless plan last 2 week but many ppl take leave le leh..so might b hard..will need to take close look at my schedule to plan ba...i tell myself..i mus haf my strenght to move on..no matter what...to get back as much of me as possible..

work r so busy nwaday..been working late n i haven gt chance to really start study...mus work hard le..paper gonna b tough..mus start soon..econmic is so down now..every1 is worry abt their job especially in my industry..so many job cutting news..if there any thign happen..guess i will need to start low again ba...perhaps start working in finance accounting line to prepare for career after the degree..

shall stop here le..n go study a bit ba..else i really lagging..keke..

(Note: I am being haunt so have to come n blog ya.:x)

Updates

2008-11-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

I have been haunt by the gers for updates..so as requested i here...but will provide the requested items tmr ya...the itinerary for ytd activties and the itinerary for the nxt events...6 Dec...will prepare the invitations to you all also ya..:P.. jus came back form msia..so tired and the after effect of ytd activites has begins...take care gers..

Quick updates....

2008-10-23T20:46:00.003+08:00

hey my dear frenzs...so sry tt so long no updates from me...quick updates from me:
actually been very busy since going back to work especially after the annoucement of the new boss...new boss is so demanding...keep asking us do this n that n the dateline is always so tight..till now i oso cant finish my work..everyday pile higher n higher..especially when my partner was on leave last week...everynight oso ot..sian...

as for sch...omg...poa is killing me not to mention the other 2 modules ya...really need to start studying hard...mock exam in march...there only abt 5 mth away..with my current work load 5 mth will jus pass very fast...hope i really can settle dw to study..this sat still haf make up class...

oh ya gers..of course not to forget our planning for the trip..so tentative date will b 28 nov ya..keke..actually jus pick up some brochures from travel agency oso..find a day when we can go hunt tgt ya...nt to 4gt gd lucks to all my buddies for ur coming exam..*JIAYOU* :)

多情的我遇上绝情的你

2008-09-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

自从爱上了你的气息我就不再是我自己关上了门专注爱你相信这份爱你也会珍惜看着你紧握他的手而离去那颗爱你的心痛得彻底不愿清醒说服自己面对谁还可以安抚受伤的心我知道该背负的伤都只有我自己为何放不开你虚情假意多情的我遇上绝情的你早就注定这是悲伤结局我知道再多的爱你再也负担不起不甘放手让你离我远去多情的我遇上绝情的你黑夜再长也不要有回忆看着你紧握他的手而离去那颗爱你的心痛得彻底不愿清醒说服自己面对谁还可以安抚受伤的心我知道该背负的伤都只有我自己为何放不开你虚情假意多情的我遇上绝情的你早就注定这是悲伤结局我知道再多的爱你再也负担不起不甘放手让你离我远去多情的我遇上绝情的你黑夜再长也不要有回忆思念不断蔓延跨过曾经谁来拯救这个受伤的心怪我太痴情怪我傻透到底求你不要再来伤我的心我知道该背负的伤都只有我自己为何放不开你虚情假意多情的我遇上绝情的你早就注定这是悲伤结句我知道再多的爱你再也负担不起不甘放手让你离我远去多情的我遇上绝情的你黑夜再长也不要有回忆黑夜再长也不要有回忆

Nice Songs

2008-09-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
每当我在夜里想起你的时候，不知道你在哪头。心里面有许多许多的哀与愁，不知是否是永远的伤口。当你扔下我一个人说走就走，其实我也知道你很难受。只是这个世界把你我分两头，割断青丝与残优。想起你我相爱的时候，想见只能在电话里头。我真的好伤悲，好难受。不知道什么时候才是尽头。为什么相爱的人不能够在一起，偏偏换成了回忆。我带着你的照片找到海角天边希望你会再出现。为什么相爱的人不能够在一起，偏偏换成了回忆。我就算忘记世界也忘记你，也忘不了我们有过的甜蜜。

怎么会狠心伤害我
每个孤独的晚上就象电影的散场身边的人都离开不知何时有泪光每个相爱的地方都象回忆织的网多少痛苦关在胸膛谁能看出我的伤 ━━≡music≡━━ 当我松开你的手眼泪离开眼眶后喝下沉溺的烈酒醒来最终要接受当爱散落的时候何谓天长和地久痛苦了一生的时间是否明白是否足够怎么会狠心离开我这一切到底为什么分不清一切都是谁的错付出换来这种结果怎么会狠心伤害我可怜我爱你那么多失去了快乐幻灭了承诺守住两个人的日子一个人过

I fine le.....

2008-09-16T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hi friends out there...thanks for the concern...i much better now le and has gone back to work...

going back to work feel so strange..my colleagues dun really talk to me leh..tink they r quite unhappy that i haf been away for so long oso ba...

worse is i found out i enrol wrong unit for my study oso..saw an email from my lecturer stating that if pass both math n econ bridging, can haf another unit exempted..but prob is i already enrol n pay for that unit..stupid lo..course start at 4 Aug but lecturer only sent out email at 28th aug stating that if we have queries on selecting units can ask him....went to the sch to check but the counter staff cant gif me an ans as in whether there are futher exemption, need to double confirm wif my lecturer den decide..mayb can refund me full or mayb partial oni..hope is full ba..cos nt my fault leh..right from start no 1 tell me got additional exemption lo...

as days passed, i realise he seem to b able to live his life w/o me oso..planning so many activities for himself..so y m i still pinning hope or thinking abt it..shldn't i live better den him???i really start to doubt guy's word...wondering y a person can change so much..

"when a guy say he love you 4ever, the 4ever will end when he say this to another ger"

"b brave to face ur own heart, then u will b able to find out what u really wants"

hi..

2008-09-06T12:50:00.003+08:00

Hi frenzs...been missing for weeks le...not easy weeks for me..when u r down..everything bad jus come oso...

this yr my bday was the worse bday i ever haf..been crying on tat day and spend the day alone at msia..such a miserable bday..worse is i start to feel sick oso but still went back to work on mon...end up lunch time went c doc and haf mc for tt day..doc told me gt some infection so eat aniti biotics...another day pass n i become weaker till wed,roy bought me to c doc again at the hospital. it was so bad that the staff there gave me wheelchair...n doc suggest to go for drip...was lying in hospital while waiting for my blood report and under obseravation...report out n show that i have bad infection n my white blood count is 235( normal is less than 10), so he has no choice but to precribe a stronger anitibiotics for me..each day i m so sick that i jus stay on bed..until sat roy sent me back to msia cos my mum was worry n wanna take care of me...end up i fainted at the checkpoint..suggestion was to sent me back to sg hospital but my mum worry that i cant stand teh journey back again..so decided to sent me home n observe c how..i mus b so sick that my mum was so worry tt i c her tears dropping...it really break my heart..roy was so worry oso that sun he gt a chinese sinseh to go my hse c me...chi sinseh say there r ulcers in my intestines causing internal bleed tt y my blood count is so weak n say shld nt sent me to hospital else in western medical, they might treat as cancer...so i stop the anti biotics and eat chinese medi..still was lying on bed for few days...went for another test 2 days back n now my white blood cell is back to normal but was diagnosed that i have Anemia. after a weeks plus on bed..today finally feel better n hence here i m to update u gers wat happens...

still have another week of mc..but i tink i definitely will have a hard time when i return to office..haiz..mc for 3 weeks sia.. boss already very unhappy due to my depression and medical leave nw i having mc again...frankly speaking...i m very unhappy with the job oso le..haiz...

why it is when eveytime i m down, at my darkest time u r the one there for me....thanks for the things u done for me...thanks for still being there for me even thou everytime my tears roll down becos of him...

y m i still thinking of him when he hurt me so much..i still misses him so much and cried for him...emo still goes on............

Another down day...

2008-08-21T21:10:00.003+08:00

went for medical appt today..haha...the doc so funny..told him the medi make me dun wanna wake up to go work so i stop den he say change another type..den he ask m i losing weight i say yes..abt 4-5 kg den he like very shock..end up he prescibe another anti depresant pills n sleeping pill but he say these 2 pills will make me fat...*faint* so hard to slim dw nw he wanme gain weight..den he say ask me go exercise den wun go fat...so is forcing me to excercise la..

frenz..i noe u all r concern n disapprove of my tinking now..i not trying to fall deep into the pithole..but work nwaday is really getting very bad...team mates quarrel..boss pushing so hard..haiz..i really haf no job satisfaction at all..it is not cos of him tt i start to become lidat..thou it does affect my mood but still i trying to focus on my work n study..i do wish to bury myself with work n study but then work is really nt getting anywhere..

ok here is another song recommend by pw..坚强分手 - 何俊明
我,知道你握着我,要跟我说理由, 在电话那头,静静的沉默, 我,知道你不爱我,却没有回头, 在天黑以后,我学会冷漠, 我会坚强分手,自己远走,不用你担心我天黑了以后,我会选择一个人过, 我会坚强分手,自己远走,不用你安慰我孤单的时候,我会一个人到处去走走. 我,知道你握着我,要跟我说理由, 在电话那头,静静的沉默, 我,知道你不爱我,却没有回头, 在天黑以后,我学会冷漠, 我会坚强分手,自己远走,不用你担心我天黑了以后,我会选择一个人过, 我会坚强分手,自己远走,不用你安慰我孤单的时候,我会一个人到处去走走.

count down to my bday...2 days...

Another day....

2008-08-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

Another day has passed...but my emo feeling are still so strong....n work is really getting worse..time passes so slowly n there no motivation to work at all except the fact i need the salary..so many thing happen in work...quarrels among own team mates..where the united team that we used to haf???with the possibilities of pw leaving..it upsets me even more..she my only gd frenz at work now n she will b gone soon too...so tell me how i gonna survive in this shit...wanna use work n study to shift my focus but now work oso so meaningless le..

Never let u go- lyrics

2008-08-19T18:27:00.000+08:00

this is one of my fav song...attached the lyrics here...

Never let you go (“大哥”英文版) 作/词/编∶Robert Lay @ On Your Mark

The rain, just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains My heart, can't seem to learn to part the hold you left the mark all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark Though I told myself won't hold my breath a part of me was dying there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in * If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know, I'd never let you go * The way, you left me on the train I don't know what to say I remember everything on that day I can't believe we'd never dance I just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance Though I told myself won't hold my breath a part of me was dying there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in YEAH Repeat * Repeat *

Emo day............

2008-08-18T22:29:00.002+08:00

hmmm..here come the emo ger..today really a bit emo due to some reason but not to elaborate too much here ba...suddenly feel that time passes so slow while I was working(trying hard to focus back on work, but work like very shit leh)..Die...already think that night r so hard to pass now even day oso lidat...

sl...cheer up oso ya...knew that u haf a bad mon today at work...but dun b angry..not worth it...a hug for u....

Attached sth that I found very meaningful..is call ABC's of marriage..but I think it shld apply to couple too..

Absolutely adore each other
Be best friends
Communicate
Discover new things together
Encourage each other
Forgive and more importantly-forget
Gaze into each other's eyes
Hug a lot
Intrigue each other
Joke and laugh and have fun
Kiss Kiss Kiss
Love with all your hearts
Marvel at each other's talent
Nurture each other's souls
Overcome problems together
Play games
Quiet each other's fear
Remember the little things
Say "I Love You" everyday
Take time for tenderness
Understand and care deeply
value everything you share
Wish on a star
Xpress your true feelings
Yearn for each other's touch
Zip your Lip

Movie: Monet nt enuff 2

2008-08-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

Time passes so slow today..dunno wat to do so went to catch a movie, Money not enough 2...quite a comedy show..but it is also a touching show about how great parent are..they are always sacrificing for the family..for the children...while watching this show..getting emo oso is becos i tink of him again..tinking of what he has told me about how he feel when he watched this movie..abt the wifes in the show...

Came back to selegie...it feel familiar n strange too...dun really noe the real reason y i m back..perhaps there are some feeling or things that i wanna find out ba..dun ask me what cos I m confused oso..but 1 thing for sure..I still think of him no matter where I m...

Meaningful song

2008-08-17T15:14:00.002+08:00

Hey JY, thanks for ur recommendation ya..so meaningful..shall attached the lyrics here...
songs can b hear thru...
http://www.imeem.com/people/mGYDTY/playlist/LGm1Po4Y/yan_lei_xiao_le_liu_li_yang_music_playlist/

眼泪笑了

比想象中更痛　　你真的没回头　　我命令眼泪不许失控　　回忆不跟你走　　都挤在我心中　　我就有责任让它值得被珍重　　谢谢你曾让我难过　　谢谢我没有想太多　　当爱情左盼右顾的时候　　我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢　　再勇敢的站着找回光和热　　面对你的时候我不会舍不得　　因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折是美的　　我眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢　　来不及完美的就唱首骊歌　　想起你的时候我不是卑微的　　反而我没有遗憾因为我已爱过你深深的　　心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿洲　　我没有时间不知所措　　你温柔的双手本就不属于我　　又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

Bday celebration at my place - 16 aug

2008-08-17T00:28:00.015+08:00

Just finish my bday celebration with Jing Ying, Su Ling,Carol,Pei Mei,Jerm,YongHui, Jiamin and her boy. Thanks all for coming to spend the night with me...expecially the gers have spend so much effort to go buy the stuffs and carry them over ya...

yonghui u 4gt to leave a msg on my card..haha....shall forgive u since u sent sms to apologise le..

Frenz 4 ever..

I know u all will always be there for me..thanks...

here some photos for the wonderful night...

Me n JY

Me n Carol

Me n PM Me n SLMe n JMMe n YHMe n JermUs Cake & cards for me n Jerm

Somehow there are problem to enlarge them here...If you want all the photos..can get it from me...

As promise...I back

2008-08-16T16:10:00.002+08:00

Hey gers....as promised i back to blogging...layout more or less is done but I will still make some changes to the feel bits by bits....will be creating my songs playlist soon ya...Do reccommend songs to me..:) Waiting for u all right now..keke