went for medical appt today..haha...the doc so funny..told him the medi make me dun wanna wake up to go work so i stop den he say change another type..den he ask m i losing weight i say yes..abt 4-5 kg den he like very shock..end up he prescibe another anti depresant pills n sleeping pill but he say these 2 pills will make me fat...*faint* so hard to slim dw nw he wanme gain weight..den he say ask me go exercise den wun go fat...so is forcing me to excercise la..

frenz..i noe u all r concern n disapprove of my tinking now..i not trying to fall deep into the pithole..but work nwaday is really getting very bad...team mates quarrel..boss pushing so hard..haiz..i really haf no job satisfaction at all..it is not cos of him tt i start to become lidat..thou it does affect my mood but still i trying to focus on my work n study..i do wish to bury myself with work n study but then work is really nt getting anywhere..

ok here is another song recommend by pw..坚强分手 - 何俊明
我,知道你握着我,要跟我说理由, 在电话那头,静静的沉默, 我,知道你不爱我,却没有回头, 在天黑以后,我学会冷漠, 我会坚强分手,自己远走,不用你担心我 天黑了以后,我会选择一个人过, 我会坚强分手,自己远走,不用你安慰我 孤单的时候,我会一个人到处去走走. 我,知道你握着我,要跟我说理由, 在电话那头,静静的沉默, 我,知道你不爱我,却没有回头, 在天黑以后,我学会冷漠, 我会坚强分手,自己远走,不用你担心我 天黑了以后,我会选择一个人过, 我会坚强分手,自己远走,不用你安慰我 孤单的时候,我会一个人到处去走走.

count down to my bday...2 days...

Another day has passed...but my emo feeling are still so strong....n work is really getting worse..time passes so slowly n there no motivation to work at all except the fact i need the salary..so many thing happen in work...quarrels among own team mates..where the united team that we used to haf???with the possibilities of pw leaving..it upsets me even more..she my only gd frenz at work now n she will b gone soon too...so tell me how i gonna survive in this shit...wanna use work n study to shift my focus but now work oso so meaningless le..

this is one of my fav song...attached the lyrics here...

Never let you go (“大哥”英文版) 作/词/编∶Robert Lay @ On Your Mark

The rain, just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains My heart, can't seem to learn to part the hold you left the mark all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark Though I told myself won't hold my breath a part of me was dying there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in * If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know, I'd never let you go * The way, you left me on the train I don't know what to say I remember everything on that day I can't believe we'd never dance I just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance Though I told myself won't hold my breath a part of me was dying there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in YEAH Repeat * Repeat *

hmmm..here come the emo ger..today really a bit emo due to some reason but not to elaborate too much here ba...suddenly feel that time passes so slow while I was working(trying hard to focus back on work, but work like very shit leh)..Die...already think that night r so hard to pass now even day oso lidat...

sl...cheer up oso ya...knew that u haf a bad mon today at work...but dun b angry..not worth it...a hug for u....

Attached sth that I found very meaningful..is call ABC's of marriage..but I think it shld apply to couple too..

Absolutely adore each other
Be best friends
Communicate
Discover new things together
Encourage each other
Forgive and more importantly-forget
Gaze into each other's eyes
Hug a lot
Intrigue each other
Joke and laugh and have fun
Kiss Kiss Kiss
Love with all your hearts
Marvel at each other's talent
Nurture each other's souls
Overcome problems together
Play games
Quiet each other's fear
Remember the little things
Say "I Love You" everyday
Take time for tenderness
Understand and care deeply
value everything you share
Wish on a star
Xpress your true feelings
Yearn for each other's touch
Zip your Lip

Time passes so slow today..dunno wat to do so went to catch a movie, Money not enough 2...quite a comedy show..but it is also a touching show about how great parent are..they are always sacrificing for the family..for the children...while watching this show..getting emo oso is becos i tink of him again..tinking of what he has told me about how he feel when he watched this movie..abt the wifes in the show...

Came back to selegie...it feel familiar n strange too...dun really noe the real reason y i m back..perhaps there are some feeling or things that i wanna find out ba..dun ask me what cos I m confused oso..but 1 thing for sure..I still think of him no matter where I m...

Hey gers....as promised i back to blogging...layout more or less is done but I will still make some changes to the feel bits by bits....will be creating my songs playlist soon ya...Do reccommend songs to me..:) Waiting for u all right now..keke