Hi frenzs...been missing for weeks le...not easy weeks for me..when u r down..everything bad jus come oso...

this yr my bday was the worse bday i ever haf..been crying on tat day and spend the day alone at msia..such a miserable bday..worse is i start to feel sick oso but still went back to work on mon...end up lunch time went c doc and haf mc for tt day..doc told me gt some infection so eat aniti biotics...another day pass n i become weaker till wed,roy bought me to c doc again at the hospital. it was so bad that the staff there gave me wheelchair...n doc suggest to go for drip...was lying in hospital while waiting for my blood report and under obseravation...report out n show that i have bad infection n my white blood count is 235( normal is less than 10), so he has no choice but to precribe a stronger anitibiotics for me..each day i m so sick that i jus stay on bed..until sat roy sent me back to msia cos my mum was worry n wanna take care of me...end up i fainted at the checkpoint..suggestion was to sent me back to sg hospital but my mum worry that i cant stand teh journey back again..so decided to sent me home n observe c how..i mus b so sick that my mum was so worry tt i c her tears dropping...it really break my heart..roy was so worry oso that sun he gt a chinese sinseh to go my hse c me...chi sinseh say there r ulcers in my intestines causing internal bleed tt y my blood count is so weak n say shld nt sent me to hospital else in western medical, they might treat as cancer...so i stop the anti biotics and eat chinese medi..still was lying on bed for few days...went for another test 2 days back n now my white blood cell is back to normal but was diagnosed that i have Anemia. after a weeks plus on bed..today finally feel better n hence here i m to update u gers wat happens...

still have another week of mc..but i tink i definitely will have a hard time when i return to office..haiz..mc for 3 weeks sia.. boss already very unhappy due to my depression and medical leave nw i having mc again...frankly speaking...i m very unhappy with the job oso le..haiz...

why it is when eveytime i m down, at my darkest time u r the one there for me....thanks for the things u done for me...thanks for still being there for me even thou everytime my tears roll down becos of him...

y m i still thinking of him when he hurt me so much..i still misses him so much and cried for him...emo still goes on............